Monday, December 28, 2009

2009 Year In Review Voice Blog...

Hey everyone! Hope you had a wonderful Christmas/Holiday ;)

I decided a few days ago I wanted to put together my first ever voice blog to see if it'd work, and though it got somewhat long, it worked! I'll keep this blog short, since you can listen (ooh la la) to my year in review below. ;)

Quick note, though*** I wanted to throw in some visuals with the recording, so here are my...

Favorite Christmas Item(s)...

Like so...

And... myself modeling them for an excuse to play with the new cam before I get back to major shoots in January...

Hope you enjoy the voice blog as well as the snaps :) I think I'm going to be doing these on a more regular basis.

p.s. Those are my favorite presents, but what was your favorite 'thing'??

My Voice Blog/2009 Year in Review...

Ashley | Bottle Bell

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Friday, December 18, 2009

Behind the Scenes of My Life | Session 2 - Portrait of an Artist...


Hope you all are very well!

I decided (since I had 5 extra seconds today) that I was going to try out my new 5d mark ii for the first time and see what I could come up with. I realized two things in the process: 1.) That nothing ever really takes just 5 seconds... and 2.) I am in love with my new camera.

I have tons of things lined up for January and throughout the new year that I cannot wait to share in regards to shooting and projects, but this month was just a 'me' month, and I spent the bulk of it catching up on the business side of being an artist, and personal work.

However, now that it's December (when did that happen, right??) I wanted to dedicate another blog to my 2nd Behind the Scenes of My Life piece. And this time it's not just pictures, but also some random things about me that I thought I'd throw in. It's nice to be able to share things (photos & otherwise) that don't necessarily end up in a portfolio or magazine, but are often the more 'real me'. I threw in a vintage prop with this piece, since it's sorta my thing. ;) This first shot is the processed piece from todays shoot and doubles as my Happy Holidays & New Years card to all of you who've been a continuous flow of support and inspiration in 2009. Thank you all. Truly. I was soooo close to throwing on a super cheesy 1980s sweater and doing the super over the top holiday card with tacky mugs, but opted to keep it real. Hey, maybe next year... :p

So without further adieu, let's do it...

"Portrait of the Artist, 2009"

Random Trivia: The teddy bear, above, was my mother's first toy as a child and I keep in it my room on my writing desk.


And now for more some
real behind the lens stuff...

I took some shots before the 'official' shoot today sans makeup (for the most) and decided I was only going to minimally process them, so that I can share a piece of the real me. It's so hard (if you are photog I know you catch my drift) to not process something out of camera, especially when it's yourself, and when you are so use to running pieces through the magical wonder that is Photoshop & Lightroom, etc...

So I tried really hard to not do much. I wanted the below pics to reflect the words I'm putting with them that give you a real glimpse into some of what's behind "The Bottle Bell" and who I am behind the lens. I feel almost naked without fully embracing all the tools of CS4 or being styled to the hilt, but I think that it's good to embrace the imperfections in oneself as well...

Oh, and for those that wanted to see pics from facebook, that's the new cut. :)

* The tattoo down my spine in deeply personal for me, but I'm often asked about it. I got it this April in a tiny little milkhouse in the back country of Wisconsin. It's a line from a poem I wrote to remind me to slow down when I need to, and of how much I connect with nature.

* You don't often see profile shots of me like the one above, because growing up- I really didn't like it. I have a slight curve in my nose that is the remnant of my Native American Heritage. (Iroquois - Mohawk). I use to hide it, but in growing up, I've come to embrace it.

* My favorite smells in the world (and I prefer them to perfume any day) are:
*Olive Blossom

* I read poetry like most people watch TV. I cannot get enough (as I'm also a writer) and my favorites are Neruda, Kavanagh and Keats. (for now ;)

* The scarf I'm wearing in these shots might just be my favorite material thing in the world. I wear it with everything. I even sleep in it. It's the American Apparel Circle Scarf, and every photographer needs one. (It's great for throwing over your head and camera to see the shot when it's too bright outside). It also unfolds into a nice little throw for warmth. Also good as a pillow, and is as soft as a cloud.

* My last name, "Lebedev" is not my maiden name. It's from an ex husband (yes I was married?!) and is Russian - meaning 'swan' or 'graceful bird'. My maiden name is Swedish.

*My entire lineage is a nice testament to what a mutt I am:
-Native American

* I have two freckles on my upper lip. Of all the freckles that speckle my shoulders and face, these are the only two I actually like. :)

* I am obsessed with leggings and have one pair in almost every color. And though it's super cold in Minnesota for the next like 4 months, I am completely determined to wear them through the frozen months.

* I can't have caffeine (pout face, no coffee EVER) or I end up in the hospital.

* I dance every other moment. Especially in public. It's just a thing. I love ballet, belly dancing, and hip hop. I love love love to spin.

* My favorite drink on cold nights is steamed lavender honey milk w/ foam. Yum.

* I meditate everyday for an hour. I cannot even begin to express how amazing and fulfilling I find it to be. I get lost in it and always feel energized and peaceful after a nice mellow session. I also love guided imagery.

* I prefer eastern medicine to western medicine - a strong opinion I have come to hold through my own life experience. I will often try acupuncture, herbs, energy work, and yoga before going to a doctor for something.

* My two favorite creatures on this Earth are my two dogs Dixie & Indigo. I adore all animals, and couldn't live without my mutts.

* I'm a night owl. Always have been. Always will be. I love mornings, but I love how quiet the night makes the world. :)


Happy Holidays, Everyone!
See you in 2010. xx

Click here to read my last Behind The Scenes of my Life.

Thanks for stoppin' through ;)
-Ashley | Bottle Bell

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Monday, December 07, 2009

PHOTOGRAPHY BURNOUT (and other common blunders) How.To.Beat.'Em.

"Derive happiness in oneself from a good day's work, from illuminating the fog that surrounds us..." -Henri Matisse


"Ideas are the root of creation..." -Ernest Dimnet

This is a long post. It took me a long time to write it, and I consulted with a lot of people to have several different points of view on the who's, what's, why's and how's of creative ruts, and how to beat them. It's not a fast read, but it's worth it. I promise.

So here we go...and let's have fun with this.

Alright, in the 3 and 1/2 years I've been a photographer (from hobbyist to shooting professionally) there are 4 questions I get emailed to me on a daily basis:

1.) What music is on your website? (stock music from a stock site I do not know the name of...)

2.) How do you process your photos? (a long and tedious process, and a bit of a magician's trick)

3.) How much are your prints? (they are super affordable, I promise ;)

4.) "How do you continue to create, and stay inspired? I'm in a major creative rut, and hate all my work."

This blog is to answer that last question.

This leads me to the official 'blah' terminology....

We've all heard the terms. Yah, you know the ones...

*Photography Burnout
*Writers Block
*Burnt Out
*In a rut
*Fill in the _________ .


First of all -Grab a coffee or a warm tea. Maybe a cold beer or a glass of wine if that does it for you. Something you feel comfortable and happy with, however big or small, and have a read. Get comfortable. (This is just as important and what I'm about to blog about) This particular post is far overdue to those I've promised it to over the past few months, but I wanted to be sure I was in the right place to be able to give some solid advice, not only to Photographers, but to all creatives. My hope is that in writing this I might help a few out there that are really needing a creative boost. Whether Photography (or perhaps you are a Writer or Artist??), is your career or hobby, I hope you can take something away that INSPIRES you.

So, this may be a long post, but there is not a quick answer. However, in saying that, there IS AN ANSWER - actually several. There are a few key points that I think are 100% essential in all artists' lives to maintain a level of 'creative flow'. I will list them below, and then go into them, and break them down.

1.) Inspiration (Both finding, and becoming)
2.) You cannot make a masterpiece, everday.
3.) Give yourself downtime from what you love the most.
4.) Knowing & understanding what it actually means to be an artist.
5.) Slooooooow Down. Why is everyone rushing?
6.) Patience with yourself.

1.) Inspiration:

"Set Your Goals High Enough To Inspire You And Low Enough To Encourage You." -Author Unknown

THIS IS THE BIG ONE. Get INSPIRED. Just today I was speaking with Stephen (a landscape photographer) about this post and how I was going to go about this, and he said that 90% of his inspiration (and ideas) come while he doesn't have a camera in his hand. I found that impressive, but in no way surprising. Furthermore, I'd venture to say, 99% of my ideas come when I'm nowhere near a camera. They come when I'm out and about, watching a movie, at a bookstore, on a trip or even a walk, playing with my dogs, taking a hike, playing in nature, etc... We can't lock ourselves into our houses - same boring routine, day after day, enclosed within our spaces, where our bills are lying by our computer or notebook...blah blah blah, and expect to come up with something amazing to shoot/write/create. You have to experience something amazing (or that inspires you, usually in a new way). This something amazing can vary depending what you love, what you do, and who you are, but mix it up a bit.

*Find what inspires YOU.

*Surround yourself with it.

*Know why and what about it inspires you.

*Nurture that 'feeling' within you.

*Keep a notebook, because ideas will come when you create this environment for them.

How I achieve this step:

*I watch movies (new ones, with powerful storylines & beautiful imagery). At the theatre and stacks at home. I can't get enough of a good story that's made well.

*Long walks in nature with no goal, no decided path, and no deadline. Get lost like you did when you were a kid. Rediscover what it's like to be unplugged from the computer or a phone. I find such a different kind of inspiration comes from silence or the beauty of the woods.

*I surround myself with beautiful things (I call these 'little luxuries'). These can vary from cups of tea, or a comfy pair of pajamas you reaaaalllly wanted and saved up for. This can also include a beautiful photo book, or favorite novel. I literally will not even leave my home without a Pablo Neruda (poetry) book. Peruse (when it doesn't feel like work) Flickr, for example, looking only under their Interestingness & Explore pages to see some of the most beautiful images the net has to offer.

*Start an inspiration journal (I have one on my computer). Either a notebook or a folder that you can open, and see beautiful quotes, poems, imagery that you've compiled over time.

*I only listen to beautiful music (my favorites are solo piano ballads and soft acoustic ;)

*I meditate daily and am always amazed at what a little mellow and gentle introspection can produce. Giving the brain a little downtime can help it recuperate from all the thinking (and over thinking we artists are prone to ;)

*I get out of the house. My favorite indoor places are bookstores. Barnes & Noble, anyone?? Go to their magazine section, their art section, their poetry section, their travel section, their interior decor section. Grab a big stack of things that aesthetically appeal to you, and go find a comfy chair.

*Enjoy the company of whomevers company you actually enjoy. Don't hang around just anyone. Find those you truly enjoy, and who you look up to (Father, friend, neighbor, even an animal). Take from them what you love about them, and put it towards your art. :) Let it fuel you.

2.) You cannot make a masterpiece, everyday.

Leonardo Da Vinci did NOT paint the Mona Lisa in a day, and I doubt he'd have really loved it if he had. How can you love something that came to fruition and was executed in one day? True masterpieces are only such (imho) because they are being created by the artist giving that artwork, novel, or photographic piece a part of their own self. And in giving oneself to something to make it beautiful, you need to replenish it's source. You need to replenish you, because you are taking from you.

Robert Frost once said: "No tears in the writer, No tears in the reader."
Keep that in mind. Always keep that in mind. You must be overflowing to give (with any emotion).

3.) Give yourself downtime from what you love the most.

Have you ever heard anyone say that once they began doing what they loved as a career, it stopped being fun? Or, that in cultivating their passion for monetary gain, it lost it's allure or appeal?

I have. I think it's because things are fun when we have fun doing them, which also means we do them when we want to vs. when we are obligated to by others, etc. They stop being fun when deadlines are put onto our 'passions'.

How I beat this blunder:

Because it's sometimes almost impossible (especially for those of us under contract, or Commercial Photographers who have clientele' deadlines) to really take time off or have a lot of downtime, it's still important to remember that time off is essential in some form. Whether that is once a day, once a week, or once a month or if you need to rewrite an overbooked schedule, take a look at what you can do to get that fundamental personal time you need. Unplug for that amount of time, and really dedicate it to doing something else. Something, preferably that you find pleasant to do instead. It will help you to miss your passion in a way that isn't there or so obvious when it becomes the obsession. There's such a fine line, sometimes...

Also, I have found it's nice to remind yourself as to why you got into this business (writing, art, photography, etc) For myself and photography, I always look back to the beginnings. What inspired me about the process of film, and the process of telling stories through my lens? It's usually a pleasant and nostalgic and recuperative look down memory lane. These help to ground me when I'm floating on top of a crazy 'to do' list of deadlines. Don't forget why you do what you do. Don't forget to revisit why you started this job, and nurture those feelings. This almost goes back to the well known: "Don't forget who you are."

4.) Know and understand what it actually means to be an artist.

Have you ever heard the quote: "Being a Poet is a condition, not a profession".

This applies to all creatives. Writers, poets, photographers, artists, etc... If you shook your head yes to that quote, you get it. We 'right brainers' need to understand that our need to create indicates who we are and what we are susceptible to on a much deeper level. We are the feelers and the thinkers, etc... This often means we are sensitive (sometimes more-so than others) because we are creative at our very heart. And it's not just being sensitive to bills, or stress, but also being sensitive when we are out of whack with our own creative flow.

5.) Slooooooooow down. Why is everyone rushing?

Why is everyone rushing....? Drum roll please...MONEY, FAME, VALIDATION, OR BILLS (or some related aspect of this). Usually. I have observed this over and over, and have fallen victim to this myself many times -especially at the beginning. I think there is a common habit in this industry (again often reinforced by the above mentioned culprits) to rush and rush and so on .... to produce a million great pieces a week or month, to keep up with the demand put onto us by every single bill or deadline, so that we can continue to progress and not disappoint ourselves or others. This is also not helped by how fast social networking has made our lives, and this light speed technology. We must stay RELEVANT in such a fast paced world. It all reinforces our habit to RUSH. Yes, we can do it, but should we??? When we rush ourselves, we may also become exhausted or burnt out from going faster that our creativity naturally allows. The other culprit worth touching on is the fame and external validation that is such a key part of yes, success. And, in this 'creative' industry, it can be vicious. For those of you looking to 'make it big' (be famous) in this industry, so to speak, ask yourselves, again why it's so important right away. Is it the validation from others that we need to feel like our work is as good as we hope it is?Instead, perhaps ( before rushing to be famous), put in the time to learn your craft and really fine tune your skill - as those who are famous have done before you. Before getting featured in every major magazine, spend the time on making work worth publishing. And lastly, be confident in yourself (in the meantime) to continue with your vision while you complete pieces worthy of you and your ultimate goal.

How to beat the rush:

Remember feeling rushed is, by default, your body's way of telling you you are not giving something the attention it needs. Otherwise, you wouldn't feel you were rushing.

Also, I'm a big advocate for remembering that quality *in my experience* gets you just as far as quantity. It may take twice as long, but the praise will be greater, and you will be more fulfilled once all is said and done with your own work. Slow down. Be consistent. Be the quality. Exercise a little calm. This takes practice, but is better on the body and the mind. Remember the story: "The Tortoise and the Hare". There's a reason it's a fable...

6.) Patience with Yourself. Don't beat yourself up.

"He that can have patience, can have what he will..." - Benjamin Franklin

First of all, have you ever looked at some famous artists work and thought these very words: "My work is crap. I will never be that good."

Again, I've definitely had that moment.

You must remember those 'masterpieces' you are reading or looking at are in almost every case someone who's so far into their career. So practiced in their skill. So far along with their craft. So established in their style. Their first works were probably nothing near what you are viewing now. Their first photos were probably of little nooks and lacking compositions. Their writing might have been nothing more than a passing thought that you'd have passed on as well...

Don't beat yourself up about it. It's nothing but counterproductive. It's so invalidating. Don't compare yourself to the 'greats'. You are great. You will be greater.

How to beat this:

Instead of hating yourself, and throwing away all you've ever done, try looking at the greats, whomever they may be to you, and understanding what about their work evokes such an intense response within you. What in their work is so inspiring? Let it help you grow. Let it INSPIRE you. Never copy another, but allow those works to help you find your own style, and then be willing to give yourself the time and respect enough to find and BUILD upon your own unique style. We are all different. It's the gift of being an individual. Embrace it. Utilize it. Be proud of yourself.

Below are two artists' examples of how everyone matures as their career progresses. The proof is in the pictures. Would you believe my first shot was simply of a wildflower in my garden? I hope in seeing these examples, you can see how, over time, we all advance in style, vision, subject matter, processing, narrative, depth...etc. Please feel free to click on imagery in this blog to make it bigger. Again, please don't swipe. ;)

Stephen Newport, then and now...

Myself, then and now...

“Just don't give up on trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong.” -Ella Fitzgerald

And that's it!
It's as simple and as complicated as that! :p
Hope this blog has helped some of you!

And now for just a little more inspiration, if you've made it this far, pat yourself on the back, because for checking this out (and hopefully enjoying the read) feel free to leave your name in comments to win an 8x12 signed print. It's a surprise which one I've got stashed away (it's a goodie). I will draw a winner a bit later in the month :) If you would like to leave your name in comments for the drawing, but don't have a blog where I can reach you, please leave your email or contact info as well. x

Talk soon-
Ashley | Bottle Bell

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